Why am I allowing this stupid little thing to bother me. Just because they are both stupid fucktards, and I'm the one who feels guilty. I wish I hadn't said anything...although he used to be the friend I could say anything to...even if it was about it...Guess she changed that part of him too...
I NEED TO FUCKING GO TO SLEEP BUT GOD DAMN I CAN'T WTF IS WRONG WITH THE FUCKING WORLD GOD DAMN.
Ha...normally these kinda things...give me emotions to use for playing cello and crap...Guess thats a good thing.. becuase this audition...is just not happening. Period. I will fail. And burn. And Im gonna shrug it off like everything else. I really am waiting for the day something just breaks me. Almost eager for it actually. I need to be relieved. I need to be back on vacation. In that weird house, with the..cable TV...comfy bed...millions of blankets. With stars to look at everynight. With silence undrempt of back home...with the desolation that...just let you be...
Alone.
...
1 comment:
Powerful words...
I think you should let the petals fall where they may but you have a choice to sweep them off the bough any moment you wish. This may be a little too late but don't let your heart rule your head. Deal this with intelligence. :D
(I may be watching too many movies for more than I can count...)
Post a Comment